My father, William Patrick Kenny, Sr., died on a Sunday. The Sunday on which he died was the one that fell on this very date...thirty-nine years ago.
I know not the relationship he and I might have had but for the fact he died when I was fourteen. No one does. In the past thirty-nine years, to my memory, I have not wasted a minute playing the "what if" game. Once upon a lifetime ago, he was here. Then, he was not.
The clearest memory I have - all these years later - is that May 31, 1981 served as my personal Line of Demarcation. Childhood ended for me that morning. When I tell people whose acquaintance I have made as an adult that I "have been old for a long time", it is because I have been. It is neither a good thing nor a bad thing. It is, quite simply, how life goes.
And for me, the tally has now reached thirty-nine years...
...and counting.
-AK
I keep waiting to feel something, anything and so it goes.
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